stargateficrec | A Mutual Feeling by PurpleYin (PG-13)

A bit of a late starter this month (had some trouble getting my category :) ), but I'm here to rec my first Atlantis pairing, Rodney and Elizabeth :)

Rec Category: McKay/Weir

Pairing: Rodney/Elizabeth, mentions of Elizabeth/Simon
Category: drama, poetry, het, angst, friendship
Warning: het, general sadness
Author on LJ:

missyvortexdv
Author's website: none

Link: A Mutual Feeling

Why this must be read:

Her expression says as well that she doesn't want anything more, doesn't want to risk spoiling it all, the friendship precious. It's clear she'll never let there be anything else between them, ignoring that its there already. How wonderful denial was, he wishes he had it still.

This is a beautiful and heart wrenching story of unrequited love. The author sets the scene very well and manages to include completely unrelated things such as feeding the ducks, but makes it all seem important to the story. The idea of ignorance as bliss also plays a heavy part, especially for Rodney who for the longest time didn't realise why he acted the way he did around Elizabeth. This story is emotional and desparate and will break your heart, especially the last line, but a must read for all McWeir fans, and even those who aren't

Only there's a part of him that knows it can't possibly be entirely him. Everything is there, just denied that last thing, the last level, all the other ones complete.
They don't tell each other they love each other, not like that.
They don't kiss, they don't do any more than brief hugs that are hard to break.
An attraction there and a love too, built up over time but caged and put at bay.

Until now there had been no admittance of it and never acting on it physically, unless you counted what they did for each other. All the little things and then the more important events; how he'd risked his life for hers time and time again. He isn't sure where this began, if it was there before he stepped in front of that gun or if that was just friendship then. Either way they are here now. Together, alone and with nothing left to say it seemed.

Does she know what she means to him? There's something that makes him want to say, even though he can't express it well enough, in case its not clear and in case this is the last time he can ever say so.