Like Heisenberg, Looking In, Uncertain by Gaia (strong R)

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Rec Category: John/Rodney
Pairing: Sheppard/McKay
Category: Darkfic
Warning: Violence, Non-Con, Slash, Het, H/C
Author on LJ: gaiaanarchy
Author's Website: The Other Shoe
Link: Like Heisenberg, Looking In, Uncertain

Why This Must Be Read: This story was given to me in a back alley by a shifty-eyed recc’er in a trenchcoat and dark glasses. “Psst,” she said, “this is angst.” She said it like it was the good stuff, the kind that’s supposed to be bad for you.

By the time she glided away in her black limo, I stared down at the brown-wrapped package and felt like I’d been given a snuff film. Produced by the mob. Then I read it.

Close.

Gaia does not pull any punches. The story is unflinching and the situation at the beginning is genuinely disturbing, though we see only the aftermath, which is what the rest of the story is about – Rodney dealing with an aftermath where there is precious little he can do.

The darkness merely marks this story as rare in SGA. Gaia’s real achievement is in making a situation so bleak uplifting and moving. And Rodney doesn’t say a word.