Primacy (by Chandri) (G)
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stargateficrecShow: SGA
Rec Category: Epidode-related
Characters: Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, Teyla Emmagan, Ronon Dex, Jeannie Miller, Jennifer Keller
Categories: slash
Warnings: Nil
Author on DW:chandri
Author's Website: See the AO3
Link: Primacy on AO3 Primacy on Chandri's site
Why This Must Be Read: A deliciously angsty story set after The Shrine, in which Rodney tries to make sense of his jumbled, patchy memories from the time when he was failing - and realises something important. This hits hard in the feels and the resolution's lovely. I think what I like most are the glimpses of John's desperate grief through the snapshots of Rodney's confused recollections. Gorgeous writing.
"We remember things that are first, and things that are repeated," Rodney says, the words crowding each other, maybe because he feels like now that he's here, he has to say this, now, or never get the chance again. "Primacy refers to... well, the idea is that earlier stimuli are given greater processing time, so they're better integrated into long-term memory. Primacy, recency. Priority and repetition." He scowls into space. "Believe me, it only sounds like science, but it works as a metaphor, at least."
John frowns at him. "It does?"
Rodney glares at him. "Would you - I'm trying to tell you something important!" Rodney rubs at his face with both hands and turns back to John. "I didn't get all of it back. I didn't expect to. But I remember every second you were with me. All of it. And while it was happening, I never forgot who you were." When John looks at him blankly, he ticks it off on his palm. "Remember? Priority and repetition."
John flinches, but the flash of emotion is gone too fast for Rodney to quite get a handle on it. "So, what?" And oh, that's bitterness. Rodney knows what bitterness sounds like. "You remembered me because you've known me longer?"
"No, you idiot," Rodney snaps. "I remembered you because you were always there."
Rec Category: Epidode-related
Characters: Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, Teyla Emmagan, Ronon Dex, Jeannie Miller, Jennifer Keller
Categories: slash
Warnings: Nil
Author on DW:
chandri Author's Website: See the AO3
Link: Primacy on AO3 Primacy on Chandri's site
Why This Must Be Read: A deliciously angsty story set after The Shrine, in which Rodney tries to make sense of his jumbled, patchy memories from the time when he was failing - and realises something important. This hits hard in the feels and the resolution's lovely. I think what I like most are the glimpses of John's desperate grief through the snapshots of Rodney's confused recollections. Gorgeous writing.
"We remember things that are first, and things that are repeated," Rodney says, the words crowding each other, maybe because he feels like now that he's here, he has to say this, now, or never get the chance again. "Primacy refers to... well, the idea is that earlier stimuli are given greater processing time, so they're better integrated into long-term memory. Primacy, recency. Priority and repetition." He scowls into space. "Believe me, it only sounds like science, but it works as a metaphor, at least."
John frowns at him. "It does?"
Rodney glares at him. "Would you - I'm trying to tell you something important!" Rodney rubs at his face with both hands and turns back to John. "I didn't get all of it back. I didn't expect to. But I remember every second you were with me. All of it. And while it was happening, I never forgot who you were." When John looks at him blankly, he ticks it off on his palm. "Remember? Priority and repetition."
John flinches, but the flash of emotion is gone too fast for Rodney to quite get a handle on it. "So, what?" And oh, that's bitterness. Rodney knows what bitterness sounds like. "You remembered me because you've known me longer?"
"No, you idiot," Rodney snaps. "I remembered you because you were always there."
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