stargateficrec | Diving to Drown by Tafkar (NC17)

Show: SG1
Rec Category: Daniel/Sha're
Characters: Daniel, Sha're, Apophis, Amaunet
Pairing: Daniel/Sha're, Apophis/Amaunet
Het/Slash/Gen: het
Warning: VERY DARK, non-con, violence, spoilers for Season 1 episode "Children of the Gods"
Author on LJ: tafkarfanfic
Author's Website: Tafkar's Writing
Link: Diving to Drown

Why this must be read:

Not many authors are talented enough to pull off a Daniel/Sha're darkfic, but Tafkar proves herself with this painful and gut-wrenching AU. Daniel is taken by Apophis instead of Sha're by Amaunet. What follows is a deep exploration at the damage that can be afflicted by being possessed by a Goa'uld. Even after Apophis is removed, Daniel still deals with trust issues, the bits that Apophis left behind in his mind and personality, and the very off-kilter way his relationship with Sha're has taken on. Not anymore do they have a loving and caring marriage, but now there's that hidden darkness in Daniel that manifests itself in very disturbing ways. The damage being possessed by Apophis did on Daniel's personality and mind are done. Tafkar isn't afraid to leave her reader with the sense that everything may not be fixed in the end. Daniel and Sha're may never be able to overcome this, and in the world Daniel/Sha're ficcage, that is a unique take. So brace yourself for the darkness and take the plunge into a fic that will definitely not leave your mind, even though you might wish it would.

Story Summary: The colonization of desire.

The first time Daniel Jackson slides inside his wife after leaving Abydos , he has her thrown half on top of the sarcophagus and blood is trickling from the corner of her mouth. Slipping into Sha're feels like coming home, and he dearly, desperately wishes that Apophis weren't raping her.

It begins in a blur. The former First Prime and Sha're burst into the control room, killing the two guards with swift efficiency. The door locks behind them. One wave of the ribbon device and Teal'c - shol'vah, Apophis thinks with a sneer - is flung against the wall. Daniel wonders if he's dead. The last blast of the big dark Jaffa 's weapon goes wide. It's not enough to kill Apophis, but it throws Daniel on his back and he can feel the Goa'uld lose control momentarily. Sha're drops to her knees beside him as blood flows from his shoulder, and he wonders why the hell she came fully armed to a Goa'uld mothership with one lone traitorous Jaffa as backup. "Sha're," Daniel gasps out. "Kill me, quick."

"What?" Sha're asks, reaching out. Her fierce soldier mask cracks to reveal his tender wife underneath, the muzzle of her gun lowering momentarily, and that's all it takes. Apophis is in control again, launching himself up, throwing her against the side of the sarcophagus.

Let go of her! Don't touch her! Daniel screams at Apophis. She's my wife!