As Long As It Takes, by Gayalondiel (PG)

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Rec Category: Jack and Daniel friendship
Pairing: none
Categories: Jack and Daniel friendship, Jack O'Neill, Daniel Jackson, gen, drama, team, episode related, angst, AU
Warnings: none
Author on LJ: gayalondiel
Author's Website: Gaya's World
Link: As Long As It Takes

Why This Must Be Read: Oh, this hurts. But oh, it's good.

Gayalondiel plunges us into the warped, lost mind of Jack O'Neill, in an alternate reality where Window of Opportunity twisted in on itself until his sanity buckled under the strain. But if Jack has sacrificed his sense of self for the sake of putting time right again, do you really think Daniel will stand quietly by and accept the status quo without doing something about it?

Powerful, bleak, aching - but with that little smidge of hope, at the end.


That night Jack dreamed of being alone surrounded by friends. He dreamed of too many things for his mind to straighten out. He dreamed of days when he kissed Carter and took her home, and days when he kissed Daniel and even days when he kissed Teal'c and almost died as a result. He dreamed of shooting up the control room with a zat gun to get through the stargate and sort things out, he dreamed of zatting Daniel and kidnapping him and making him have some fun for once. He dreamed of driving as far away as he could, of approaching a cliff and wondering if he would wake up next time if he died this time. He remembered holding General Hammond hostage at gunpoint, and being tackled by Teal'c and hurting a lot, and finally he remembered walking out of the commissary and sitting down on the floor with his head on his knees, unwilling to try any more.