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stargateficrecShow: SGA
Rec Category: Rodney McKay
Characters: Rodney McKay, John Sheppard, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan
Pairings: Rodney/John
Categories: slash, drama, angst with a happy ending
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Words: 44,545
Author's Journal: n/a
Author's Website: EPHenderson on AO3
Link: A Mistake Worth Making Twice
Author’s summary: After John and Rodney drunkenly sleep together, John is horrified, and Rodney is hurt. Their attempts to repair the friendship may be in vain, as both their strategies only seem to make things worse.
Why This Must Be Read: This is an absolutely outstanding fic! From the summary alone, it promises a deeply emotional story of heartbreak and sorrow, but also a tale of true love, with all its burdens and grace. Assured by the happy ending tag, the story takes you with Rodney—alternately with John—through anger, angst, grief, frustration, intrigue, and jealousy. But it also offers hope, insight, understanding, reaching out, realization, and ultimately, triumph and fulfillment—capped off with the hottest ending ever.
So, if you enjoy stories that shatter your heart alongside Rodney’s in a roller coaster of emotions and then piece it back together with a passionate, hard-won, breathtaking happy ending, this fic is for you!
Rodney was left standing in his lab, nearly blind with fury. How the hell had he ever thought he loved that man? He was so crass, and selfish, and clueless! How could he still deny his sexuality after that night? It was patently ridiculous to pretend you could have enthusiastic sex with another man and still be completely straight, no matter how drunk you were. Fine, he didn’t have any actual feelings for Rodney, but he still wasn’t straight, no matter what he told himself.
But that was typical heteronormative bullshit, that’s not what really hurt. It was the way he kept rubbing it in, how little he felt for Rodney. It had all been about Rodney’s feelings, Rodney’s inability to get over it and move on. He was treating Rodney himself like the problem. It wasn’t fair.
Rodney flopped down at his desk, the anger suddenly draining out of him and leaving him exhausted. He wasn’t even sure how he felt, anymore. Had it really just been a silly crush? A childish infatuation like a schoolgirl making eyes at her teacher? He’d never been overly successful in the dating department; he might possibly be described as desperate. John was handsome, and he was nice to Rodney. Was that really all it took to make his feelings go haywire? That seemed too pathetic, even for him. But it was hard to feel like he loved John right now, when he couldn’t even stand to be around him. It was hard to even want to be friends, at the moment.
But they couldn’t not be friends. The hole that would leave in his life would be enormous; no more banter on missions, no more team movie nights, no more beers on the pier. He’d only had it for a few years, but being without that friendship would render his life completely empty. Rodney sighed heavily. There didn’t seem to be any way out of this, other than to swallow his pride and his feelings. He would do as John wanted, and forget about the whole thing.
Rec Category: Rodney McKay
Characters: Rodney McKay, John Sheppard, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan
Pairings: Rodney/John
Categories: slash, drama, angst with a happy ending
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Words: 44,545
Author's Journal: n/a
Author's Website: EPHenderson on AO3
Link: A Mistake Worth Making Twice
Author’s summary: After John and Rodney drunkenly sleep together, John is horrified, and Rodney is hurt. Their attempts to repair the friendship may be in vain, as both their strategies only seem to make things worse.
Why This Must Be Read: This is an absolutely outstanding fic! From the summary alone, it promises a deeply emotional story of heartbreak and sorrow, but also a tale of true love, with all its burdens and grace. Assured by the happy ending tag, the story takes you with Rodney—alternately with John—through anger, angst, grief, frustration, intrigue, and jealousy. But it also offers hope, insight, understanding, reaching out, realization, and ultimately, triumph and fulfillment—capped off with the hottest ending ever.
So, if you enjoy stories that shatter your heart alongside Rodney’s in a roller coaster of emotions and then piece it back together with a passionate, hard-won, breathtaking happy ending, this fic is for you!
Rodney was left standing in his lab, nearly blind with fury. How the hell had he ever thought he loved that man? He was so crass, and selfish, and clueless! How could he still deny his sexuality after that night? It was patently ridiculous to pretend you could have enthusiastic sex with another man and still be completely straight, no matter how drunk you were. Fine, he didn’t have any actual feelings for Rodney, but he still wasn’t straight, no matter what he told himself.
But that was typical heteronormative bullshit, that’s not what really hurt. It was the way he kept rubbing it in, how little he felt for Rodney. It had all been about Rodney’s feelings, Rodney’s inability to get over it and move on. He was treating Rodney himself like the problem. It wasn’t fair.
Rodney flopped down at his desk, the anger suddenly draining out of him and leaving him exhausted. He wasn’t even sure how he felt, anymore. Had it really just been a silly crush? A childish infatuation like a schoolgirl making eyes at her teacher? He’d never been overly successful in the dating department; he might possibly be described as desperate. John was handsome, and he was nice to Rodney. Was that really all it took to make his feelings go haywire? That seemed too pathetic, even for him. But it was hard to feel like he loved John right now, when he couldn’t even stand to be around him. It was hard to even want to be friends, at the moment.
But they couldn’t not be friends. The hole that would leave in his life would be enormous; no more banter on missions, no more team movie nights, no more beers on the pier. He’d only had it for a few years, but being without that friendship would render his life completely empty. Rodney sighed heavily. There didn’t seem to be any way out of this, other than to swallow his pride and his feelings. He would do as John wanted, and forget about the whole thing.
